Some suggestions to make me relax?!

I'm sorry for your loss. When mine passed I wrote my own prayer for him (and the family) and I recite it every time I visit him. It is hard but I have found that writing your feelings and concerns helps to clear the anxiety from your mind. Since you spent a lot time with your father, I bet he already knew that you were fond of him. Take care.

Im very sorry to hear about your father-im sure though if yall were close he knows how much you love him and will miss him very much. Only time can really help you get through this because you need time to morn over his loss. I can tell you how I relax after a long stressful day.
I take a long lavender bubble bath-& drink a glass of wine. Hope this helps some & you can sleep a little better @ night

Be good to some-one, preferabily a child. Or help a stranger(especially those that can't pay u back). Listen to some good(may be sing-along) music...i suggest: how-to-save-a-life by fray. Try read 'the prisoner of chillon'(can't remember the writer), it's a very short narrative poem. Well, this may not work, but it may help put things in perspective, thus help you relax. Cheers!

That is something that you will have to live with for the rest of your life and no amount of booze will deaden the pain you feel. Just accept that what you did was not right and try and not make the same mistake again. Move on.

write him a letter and take it to his grave or read it at this grave. its normal to miss people who pass away